***I don’t know what this is or where it’s going but the words seemed to roll right off the fingers*** ~Mark
Start. Finish. Start again. Finish. Start, stop, restart, pause, maybe finish. Or maybe the whole thing gets cancelled. Or maybe you keep running in circles all day, back and forth, starting and stopping, finishing a job only to restart the next job one minute later. The same job over and over, the same task, the same people. Just a few different details, a different time of day, a different season. Different sunlight outside. Different grass, different temperature. But the same thing. Over and over. Start. Finish. Start again. Finish. Start, stop, restart, pause. And you do this so often that you lose track of what you originally set out to do in the first place.
What is this all about?
Why are you doing this?
What the fuck is the motherfucking point?
To support yourself. To survive. To pay some bills and advance yourself. To move up. Higher and higher and higher and higher only to descend suddenly and rapidly, without a golden parachute. Without a gold watch. Without a severance package or a bridge to early retirement. Without ever knowing or caring what difference you actually made. Without ever finishing the job you were put on earth to do in the first place. Without ever knowing why you are here at all.
Finally finishing….whatever it was you were doing…
And then having to start something else again right away, immediately after.
Start….stop…resume…rebalance…reassess…reengage….get ready to….ah, fuck it…
What’s the point?
Some of this shit never gets finished. Some of it you will never get around to starting.
And in the long run, the cosmic sense of it all, in terms of stars and planets and comets and things, we’re talking about the BIG picture here, none of it will ever matter.
So really, who the fuck cares?
Yeah, this is Chapter One. Don’t like it? Too dark? Too direct? Well, fuck you. Just keep reading because I promise you, this shit gets better. A lot better. In fact, you’re not going to believe what you’re about to read…